Today’s positive thought.
Another unfortunate side effect of my current situation: swelling in my extremities. (That’s not the positive thought, obviously) Apparently when you don’t move, your body gets swollen. Something to do with circulation and fluid. All I know is that if I sit in my chair for a few hours, then my feet get super swollen. They’re so bad that my shoes leave imprints on my feet. They start hurting. And for someone with numb feet, that’s saying something. My physical therapists told me to lay down with my feet elevated every now and then. That’s all find and dandy if I’m home alone or with the hubs or my folks. But, I can’t really do that if we have company over. (“You don’t mind if I lounge on the couch while you’re talking, right? Oh, and please ignore me if I fall asleep as one is accustomed to doing when lounging on the couch.”) And I especially can’t do that if I get stuck for a few hours in court. (“Excuse me your honor, but do you have a sofa in your chambers? My little piggies are swollen and I need to raise them for a bit. You don’t mind if I take my shoes off, right?”) It’s just not the easiest thing to deal with. It’s not the worst either. It’s one of those in-betweeners that is just annoyingly sucky.
What I didn’t realize right away was that it’s not just my feet that get swollen. (No, it’s not my mid-section. Though, I would love to blame weight gain on swelling. “I’m not getting fat. It’s just lack of circulation. Now pass me the fries!”) My hands have gotten swollen too! I only know this because when I came home from the hospital, my rings fit. After a couple days, I realized that my ring finger was turning purple. My engagement ring almost didn’t come off. And I hadn’t been able to wear it since. Luckily my wedding band had been one size bigger so it fit. So it sat waiting for me for months. I tried moving my arms more, massaging my hands, drinking more water, anything to get the swelling down. I would sit in my chair flailing my arms and air boxing. Didn’t help. I finally caved and went to my jeweler to have it re-sized. I was putting that off as I’m hoping to be mobile in the relatively near future. But I missed my ring too much to wait any longer. Even though they charged a ridiculous amount of money, (here comes the positive thought) it was worth it to finally slip my beautiful ring back on my non-beautifully non-manicured finger.
Now, people may think that this isn’t a big deal. To many people, it might not be a big deal. To me, it’s huge. So much of my life has been turned upside down by this surgery. I haven’t been out on my own in public since the beginning of August. I can’t take a shower unless someone is home. A lot of my normal clothes don’t fit because it’s so hard to button your pants while sitting. (Ok, that and the fries I suppose.) Strangers have been driving my car while I can’t. Going to meet friends somewhere? That’s out. Riding my bike? That’s clearly not happening. We had to take the doors off of the bathrooms for me to get in. Life is not at all what it used to be. And it’s definitely not what the hubs signed up for. So, my being able to finally wear my ring is a sense of normalcy that I can restore. And for the mind, that’s a huge deal. It’s swell, if you will.
Plus, it’s really sparkly and sparkly things make me happy. The end.