I hit a major plateau in my paralysis recovery. Or, rather, the plateau was in my mental state regarding my recovery. I became rather complacent in my wheeled life and kind of gave up on trying to get stronger. I focused on getting better in my wheelchair. If this is my life, then I need to be as good as possible in my wheelchair. But, why can’t I do both? Why can’t I be good in my chair but also still try to get out of it? I give credit to going to the gym for helping me reach this new revelation. The fact that I am getting stronger and getting pushed beyond where I ever thought I could go has made me more open to trying more things. I’m still a big whiner and really have to be forced into new things, but I’m more open to it than I was a year ago.
Today was one such day. I’m on vacation in Wyoming. The hubs and I joined a gym for the duration of our stay. It’s a really nice little gym, though it does make me miss my gym and my gym friends back home. But, for a temporary gym, this place is nice. (I love that I’ve become a person who needs to belong to a gym while on vacation. I literally NEVER thought I would be that person. I was always more of a “eat crap cause you’re on vacation” vacationer. But, now I don’t want to lose all the progress I’ve made. And I feel gross when I don’t work out these days. Who knew?!) I was going to jump on the recumbent bike while here, because that’s something that I’ve been wanting to try. But, the one here isn’t as nice as the one in my gym back home. And that’s something I want to try when I’m in my home gym on my home turf with my home girls (and guys). Instead, I decided to try the leg press machine. The hubs was all for me trying and encouraged me to jump on. So I did. And at first, I wasn’t able to do anything. Go figure- my legs didn’t work. But, then I realized I could push my knees down to straighten my legs and then my muscles kicked in and controlled my going back down. This was the kind of situation where I wish that Gun Show or one of the other trainers had been around to make sure I was doing everything correctly and to reassure me that I was actually working. (I tend to second guess everything because I don’t want to get my hopes up.) The hubs filmed me while I did a few reps. Then he showed me the video and I promptly deleted it. (Note to self: you make some really awful faces when exerting yourself. Don’t do that.) Then the hubs filmed a second round. Towards the end, I was actually able to kind of push myself up. A little. The unfortunate thing is that the video cut out at that exact moment because someone called me. But, the video caught the awesomeness of the rest of it. I don’t know if it was really that awesome, but it felt awesome. And I felt like I conquered something new. I tried for a third round, but my legs were spent and I didn’t want to push it.
So, now I am super stoked about my new signs of ability and I can’t wait to try it again and push myself more. Though, I’m worried about when I get back to my real gym, because GS has already promised to
torture push me based on the video proof what I am able to do now. Who knows what can happen?!